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Friday, September 10, 2010

When We Crash Into One Another!!

Whats good people,

I wanted to share with you a recent crash I was apart of that gave me an awaking. Life tested me one night last week and I think I failed. There was so much going on that the situation just became hassle. We are given the ideology of what it is to be human, and live this life, but do we understand it when the time is right. Sit back and listen to my story.

Story: Thursday September 2 2010. My lights go out after the heavy storm that hit the metro area and it soon becomes too dark in my apartment. With my phone dying I decided to go to my office, be productive, play on the computer and charge my phone. (random decision 1)

After an hour or two, I began to become weird-ed out being in the office alone and I was hungry. I remembered Jack In The Box on MacArthur and I-40 just opened so I was like "Imma go there have hopefully my lights will be fixed by the time I get back home." (random decision 2)

So I debate on which way is faster and decide that to just go south down MacArthur coming from North West Expressway. (random timing 1)

I get to Jack and wait in line for the long ass line of cars (random timing 2) and finally place my order. Nothing unusual just a normal order and wait time. #GOODERDENABITCH!!(random timing 3).

So I get my food, and homie says he wants to steal my dog, CREEPY. I digress. As I am exiting the parking lot I get flagged down, by a white truck.(random timing 4).

A HISPANIC WOMAN IN A TRUCK BEGINS TO ASK FOR MONEY, SHE EXPLAINS THAT THEY ARE LIVING IN THE MOTEL AND SHE DOESN'T GET PAID UNTIL 2 DAYS, AND THE MOTEL SAYS SHE HAS AN HOUR TO GET THE MONEY. SHE SAYS "IM JUST AM TRYING TO TAKE CARE OF MY 5 BABIES", AS YOU CAN CLEARLY SEE THEY ARE IN THE TRUCK.

I REPLY WITH THE TRUTH, "I DON'T CARRY CASH IM SORRY", AND SHE IS LIKE "SIR, I PROMISE ILL PAY YOU BACK, IF YOU CAN GO TO THE ATM, I WILL GET YOUR NUMBER AND GIVE YOU MINE, SIR, I PROMISE I JUST NEED HELP FOR TONIGHT."

"A CREDIT CARD ANYTHING SIR, I JUST WANT TO TAKE CARE OF MY BABIES".... She seemed really honest and desperate, but it was just too much.

Suck in the moment of morality, I just told I was sorry that I couldn't help her, and she said thank you and drove off. Now if i had cash I would have given it to her, but I really don't believe in cash. (I lose it all the time).

And in hind sight I should have at least given her my food, but I was really stuck in the situation. I really don't know if I passed or failed that test. You know?

Its so hard, there are so many dishonest people out there, that you don't know who to trust ever, there are some really good actors, and she may very well have been honest and in need, but if you don't have cash, then you don't have cash.

Her asking me to go to the ATM and/or help pay her bill on my credit card is a bit much, but also an real act of desperation. One would think she would just say, OK thanks and go to the next person.

See, it wasn't was she trying to scam me, it wasn't about the money, it was the time that was gonna be spent, going to the ATM, getting the money giving it to her getting her contact info, trusting in her. It made it all too must to want to help.

We are suppose to trust in people, and help others, but I didn't, I didn't do anything and that's why i feel like i failed. Like i said i could have just given her my food, instead I just drove off. UGH

You help people when you can, and I believe to be a good person, yet still feel like I could for done SOMETHING, she was delivered to me for SOMETHING.

It says he will never put you in a situation that you cant handle. What was I suppose to do with that situation??

Ive been visited by a few people, and i think, i think Ive done the SAME thing every time, hear their story, and DO NOTHING. Have you ever met someone randomly by twist of fate, you crash into them for reasons of the unknown and they know or can relate to you easily. My mom says they are Angels, delivered to us for a purpose.

I believe its a test. And in this case, I think I failed. So maybe this lady that night, was sent to me to open my eyes to what your missing out on, and maybe now you will make it a point to be a witness to others as often as you can, as if, we are all sent to crash into each other at random times, and what we do determines our grade. I was told if that's how I feel, like I genuinely failed, then the best you can do is ask for forgiveness. By doing so, it will show that I may have failed the test, but I do understand the material.

My final thoughts are that we are all here for a purpose, to be a friend, a mate, a companion, a mother, a father, and to help. But we get so caught up in the giant blender of the world that we miss the core ideals of human life. I say that I fail my test the other night, but in return, I am not able to see the big picture, and for that I have to thank that lady I crashed into. I glad she was sent to me. Armed now with a new prospective, I await my next test, when I crash into someone unexpectedly again.