Walk down the street via the complex simplicity that is Richard S. Allen II as he delivers his world experiences in which he lives, through his random beliefs mashed with unorthodox skills of technological writing and vivid color. Its the gift and the curse.

Friday, September 10, 2010

When We Crash Into One Another!!

Whats good people,

I wanted to share with you a recent crash I was apart of that gave me an awaking. Life tested me one night last week and I think I failed. There was so much going on that the situation just became hassle. We are given the ideology of what it is to be human, and live this life, but do we understand it when the time is right. Sit back and listen to my story.

Story: Thursday September 2 2010. My lights go out after the heavy storm that hit the metro area and it soon becomes too dark in my apartment. With my phone dying I decided to go to my office, be productive, play on the computer and charge my phone. (random decision 1)

After an hour or two, I began to become weird-ed out being in the office alone and I was hungry. I remembered Jack In The Box on MacArthur and I-40 just opened so I was like "Imma go there have hopefully my lights will be fixed by the time I get back home." (random decision 2)

So I debate on which way is faster and decide that to just go south down MacArthur coming from North West Expressway. (random timing 1)

I get to Jack and wait in line for the long ass line of cars (random timing 2) and finally place my order. Nothing unusual just a normal order and wait time. #GOODERDENABITCH!!(random timing 3).

So I get my food, and homie says he wants to steal my dog, CREEPY. I digress. As I am exiting the parking lot I get flagged down, by a white truck.(random timing 4).

A HISPANIC WOMAN IN A TRUCK BEGINS TO ASK FOR MONEY, SHE EXPLAINS THAT THEY ARE LIVING IN THE MOTEL AND SHE DOESN'T GET PAID UNTIL 2 DAYS, AND THE MOTEL SAYS SHE HAS AN HOUR TO GET THE MONEY. SHE SAYS "IM JUST AM TRYING TO TAKE CARE OF MY 5 BABIES", AS YOU CAN CLEARLY SEE THEY ARE IN THE TRUCK.

I REPLY WITH THE TRUTH, "I DON'T CARRY CASH IM SORRY", AND SHE IS LIKE "SIR, I PROMISE ILL PAY YOU BACK, IF YOU CAN GO TO THE ATM, I WILL GET YOUR NUMBER AND GIVE YOU MINE, SIR, I PROMISE I JUST NEED HELP FOR TONIGHT."

"A CREDIT CARD ANYTHING SIR, I JUST WANT TO TAKE CARE OF MY BABIES".... She seemed really honest and desperate, but it was just too much.

Suck in the moment of morality, I just told I was sorry that I couldn't help her, and she said thank you and drove off. Now if i had cash I would have given it to her, but I really don't believe in cash. (I lose it all the time).

And in hind sight I should have at least given her my food, but I was really stuck in the situation. I really don't know if I passed or failed that test. You know?

Its so hard, there are so many dishonest people out there, that you don't know who to trust ever, there are some really good actors, and she may very well have been honest and in need, but if you don't have cash, then you don't have cash.

Her asking me to go to the ATM and/or help pay her bill on my credit card is a bit much, but also an real act of desperation. One would think she would just say, OK thanks and go to the next person.

See, it wasn't was she trying to scam me, it wasn't about the money, it was the time that was gonna be spent, going to the ATM, getting the money giving it to her getting her contact info, trusting in her. It made it all too must to want to help.

We are suppose to trust in people, and help others, but I didn't, I didn't do anything and that's why i feel like i failed. Like i said i could have just given her my food, instead I just drove off. UGH

You help people when you can, and I believe to be a good person, yet still feel like I could for done SOMETHING, she was delivered to me for SOMETHING.

It says he will never put you in a situation that you cant handle. What was I suppose to do with that situation??

Ive been visited by a few people, and i think, i think Ive done the SAME thing every time, hear their story, and DO NOTHING. Have you ever met someone randomly by twist of fate, you crash into them for reasons of the unknown and they know or can relate to you easily. My mom says they are Angels, delivered to us for a purpose.

I believe its a test. And in this case, I think I failed. So maybe this lady that night, was sent to me to open my eyes to what your missing out on, and maybe now you will make it a point to be a witness to others as often as you can, as if, we are all sent to crash into each other at random times, and what we do determines our grade. I was told if that's how I feel, like I genuinely failed, then the best you can do is ask for forgiveness. By doing so, it will show that I may have failed the test, but I do understand the material.

My final thoughts are that we are all here for a purpose, to be a friend, a mate, a companion, a mother, a father, and to help. But we get so caught up in the giant blender of the world that we miss the core ideals of human life. I say that I fail my test the other night, but in return, I am not able to see the big picture, and for that I have to thank that lady I crashed into. I glad she was sent to me. Armed now with a new prospective, I await my next test, when I crash into someone unexpectedly again.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

This Thing Called KARMA

Yo Ho HO and a bottle of rum,

Im back off an extended vacation, and ready to get the thoughts out my head onto something I can revisit. I must apologize to myself first for NOT continuing my writing, it's not an easy task for me, but I think I might finally be equip to write on the fly from my (Steve from Blues Clues Voice) handy dandy cellular device. Don't you just love technology. Any who so yeah, this thing called Karma.

NOW, let me start off by saying I'm not a believer in superstitious occurrences. I was the kid that always stepped on the cracks, the kid that ALWAYS spilt the pole (and laugh to watch people go back to undo my split). So needless to say, I had no idea, and probably not a care in the word for the phenomena knows as Karma.

For those of you that don't know, here is a little Webster action for you:
Main Entry: kar·ma
Pronunciation: \ˈkär-mə also ˈkər-\
Function: noun
The force generated by a person's actions held in Hinduism and Buddhism to perpetuate transmigration and in its ethical consequences to determine the nature of the person's next existence.

Long story short, the idea of Karma is "what comes around, goes around" "if you do good things, you get good results," you do bad... Well, yeah, you pick up what I'm putting down.

Seems pretty simple and even ties into "The Golden Rule": Do onto looks as others do onto you. Thats right? RIGHT? I hope so. I digress

2010 has been a year of ups and downs, fun and pain, sorrow and joy, but has been a very unique twist of fate for myself. You see, for the first time in the 27 years on of life, I have actually had the opportunity to experience of what I have put others through. You know when you arguing with someone, and they say, "You just don't understand how that makes me feel," well I actually got the chance to "feel" on more than one occasion. And that shit SUCKS, to finally come to grips, see, and experience what my actions do to people has really been an eye opening experience for me. HA! I laugh in jest because I'm usually the one "opening peoples eyes" but its true, it really has. Being able to take a step from the game and watch from the sideline so something not many of us do, but would be great if we all could. Seeing objectively gives you an edge that no one and take from you, and applying that knowledge once you get back in the game makes you an even stronger player.

So with that said, I just wanted to apologize publicly to the people that I have hurt or betrayed unknowingly due to my selfishness and lack of responsibility, and would also like to thank each and every one of them of allowing me to experience that Karma that is rightfully mine. I can say it has become a true life altering experience that I will cherish.

I close with some creeds that I currently live by, just to share for your entertainment. The first is "every action, has a reaction" and second is "there are two sides to every story, its up to you to find the positive in them." Armed with those thus far, I have had some good times and some bad. While sitting on the sideline I have realized that this thing called Karma just might need to be equipped more than ever before because you know what, I'm just trying to be a good person. My name is Rich.

Thanks

Monday, May 24, 2010

The Wheels On the Bus!

Hello and Good Day.

Dropping by to shed some words of maybe non-wisdom coming from me, but just some of my twisted and morbid ideas about this thing we call life. Have you ever taken time off just to think about life, the gift of life and all that accompanies it? It sends chills down your arms the deeper you think about it, but that's just to alarm you and bring you back to reality.

You see life can be an as simple of a blank piece of paper. In fact we are all blank pieces of paper. It not until we begin to write, do we start becoming who we want others to read us as. Now you see, I picked, "what we want others to read us as" for a reason. Many people begin to write on their paper and dont like what they see, so, they create the person they want to become. You follow?

Ok so with that said, your paper is read and evaluated, liked and dislike, kept and thrown away, all these things happen across a normal lifespan. Now the tricky part is how do you handle the "negative" parts of your paper's evaluations?

For many, the "negative" replies bring their world to a traumatic holt. Its almost as if people become so shocked about the world not liking them, they shut down and don't want to be apart of it anymore. I've been there, its not a fun place to be, I can assure you that. But I'm here to tell you that there are two sides to everything in life, for everything "negative" there is a "positive". Its up to you to see the "positive" in EVERYTHING you do. I live by that creed, and by being positive and knowing that everything negative can be seen as positive it allows the wheel on my bus to keep going round and round. Lets keep it moving people, if not, life will sure enough pass you by.

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Bold Faced Lies

Hi Again All,

Stopping by to discuss the topic of the LIE. We all do it, we all have our reasons for it. But the real question is, who are we lying to. We lie to deceive, save face, for business strategy, for personal advancement, and avoid hurt and pain. Lies are told to close and distant people, from children to parents and from parents to children. Lies are so much more used today, we sometimes get so far wrapped in a lie, we cant escape it.

The reason I bring this to the table is just that, to find out who we are lying too. I do believe that we as humans have rendered the art of lying so much, that we cannot depict that we are lying to ourselves. The mind is indeed a powerful thing, we can MAKE ourselves believe what we want. People lie to themselves to make them feel better about the decisions they are making in life. We all know the rights and wrongs of the world. BUT we all justify. It's OK if I tell him this because... Im an advocate for justification. Doesn't mean its right, in turns two lies get told. We lie to that person and ourselves. Doesn't it say somewhere, every time you lie, you lose a bit of yourself.

Have you ever met those people that live in their own personal fictitious world because the real world has disowned them for lying?? As you observe that person, you watch the person as they attempt to create a bigger and better entity than what they are to over compensate for what they have lost via lies. It becomes sad to watch the bridges of bonds they have collapsed, among family, friends, and loved ones all because of one peoples selfish acts.

Many of us don't have the strength or awareness to see that we are doing it. Some of us are just nieve to the pool of lies in which we create. And to what means?? Minutes or hours of satisfaction?? The bold faced lie, the little white lie are all the same, some are needed, but some harm us in means that we cant even fathom, at least not as yet. Take this time to evaluate the lies you tell, hopefully, enough of you has not been lost to make that change.

So in conclusion I pose to you AND myself a deep question, Richard who are you lying to REALLY? The sooner you realize you've been lying to yourself time to time, the sooner the world will change for you.

Mission accomplished!

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Celebration, Dedication, & Proclamation's



Greetings, Salutes, and Whats the deal Peps??

So I just had the privilege of being able to celebrate my 27th birthday last week 02/24/1983. I wanted to thank S.Dot, Jitta, or is it Getta?? (i digress) and the lovely JKL for being here for me to help me bring in the occasion. If you know me, my birthday is really opposite of happy, no ones fault but mine, but still. For the most part these people are always here, good or bad, ruff times or not to help me celebrate in whatever fashion I choose. LOL I somehow ended up at Buffalo Wild Wings singing "End of the Road" with S.Dot and Jitta. If you missed it, well you missed it because it was awesome.

I wanted to give a dedication to my mother, for being just that, my mother. Still spoiling me and making me feel like her baby. I love you dearly mother, you truly are the greatest thing ever. She's went out of her way to make sure she celebrates the day I came into her world and kicked off the winding road that has been the guidance in me and my sisters development into young successful adults in this crazy world. Look at me now, I'm ok, sometimes she says.

Finally my proclamation, I wanted to just say thanks. Thanks to EVERYONE that has impacted my life, whether it be good or bad, new and old friends and family, enemies, as well as those of you have exited my life. Without you, I wouldn't be who I am today, and I love me some me, so thank you, I take my hat off to you. If you are are reading this, I don't have to name you, you know who you are. Just know that i really do appreciate you all. Umm *Nikki Minaj Voice* "THAT'S ALL I HAVE!!"

Monday, February 22, 2010

Intro Blog Reload v2

So I just decided to re-post my intro blog to give an idea of what was to come.

I'm Richard S. Allen II and this is my blog. This blog is going to serve the purpose of allowing me to collectively share a form of creativity that can only be displayed from the experiences I have with the world in which I'm engulfed in. Ive been told MANY times that my perceptive is what one may call unique, and that i have a great way of sharing my encounters to show what i experienced, but as well as i can inject surrounding people with the unbiased way of "seeing from the other side" Its a gift, lol. Yet its gives me hell sometimes, its a curse.

So i invite you to follow my blog, my life, my experiences and relate them to your everyday life. Everyone is given this gift that we call life, some of you realize it and hold on to it, but others curse it and rather leave this "damned" place. LOL its your decision. And thats the best part of this gift, we decide the ending.

Ill start off with many of the short comings I've written thus far in life, so with that I leave my foundation of this blog.


Looking ahead in life one must know there are two sides of every story, this is mine. Enjoy

Friday, February 19, 2010

See It Before You Do It

Hey All

This is Rich again with another blog entry. Today I wanted to talk bout taking a leap of faith. Now, I don't necessarily mean religiously, although we all can attest to that concept. But I mean taking the big step without planning. That step that you just say "fuck it" and throw all your worries, pride, fears, and values away and go for it. All or nothing, the sink or swim gamble, THE decision of your life, when you look back and say, "Damn I really messed that up". Many of us make this "leap," thinking its the last resort, but really for no reason. We think the gain is going to be so far substantial that we risk giving up all we worked for thus far, on a chance, a lil orange card flipped over on the board.

Its good to feed off your emotions, its NOT good to let your emotions feed on your decisions. (Thats a good thought, never put it in words like that) I digress. As much as I'm ANTI-GOAL minded, I see the strategic concept behind them. When we plan, (CORRECTLY) we put ourselves in a good to great situation for success. We develop the "if/than's" that we might encounter and virtually devise ways in which to incorporate them or work around them.

My mom (Mama Allen)is the queen of the Plan ABC method. She tries to get me to follow, but for some reason all I take in is the Charlie Brown teacher. (Waa Waa WaaWaa Waa Waa Waa) I know, I know its not right, but yes I'm hard headed. The point is that we do all need to set goals. My father told me last night, that he wanted a family, a wife, 2.5 kids, and a dog, so he planned for it to be in his future, and took the leap knowing that he was heading in the right direction.

Goals are very abstract, but more importantly, are created by you. We can set goals for the minimal as well as the max, just depends on our mindset. I do believe we should all set standards for ourselves to where we want to be in our futures and start working on it day to accomplish that blind goal. I think most people believe that fixing today will aide us in the future, but those fixes end up being weak, and underdeveloped due to the desire of immediate results. We all have our personal opinions, and this is just mine.

So I as where are you in life, are you ready to jump? That's a question that we all should ask ourselves frequently, it wont hurt. As for me, in the year 2010, I have my eyes on a distant prize, having officially rolled out the blueprint, and drafted a master plan. This is big for me, because I live a very safe life. I don't believe in taking uncalculated risks. Many people believe that I'm "go with the flow" but I'm not. So this concept will be new for me, the execution of actions to reach my endpoint, when it becomes time to leap. I have faith that I'll be ready. I grow so fast in short stages in my life and thus far I can say I have my I've seen it, planned it, and soon will be ready to finally take my leap of faith. I guess mom really does know best :o). Wish me luck, there no turning back.

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Home Improvement

Hey people,

Today I wish to embark on you an idea that I'm trying out. Now, this is nothing new, rather the implication what I'm about to attempt is rather unique. I thought I share the process and maybe inject the thought of becoming a better you than you were yesterday. How do you do that? My friend S.Dot uses the coined acronym K.I.S.S.(Keep It Simple Stupid), and this is so simple that we have done it in our lives externally, but not internally.

Every year we write these New Years resolutions in attempt to better ourselves, following these goals so well for a week, a month even, but many of us revert to previous mindset, locking you in, or even caging yourself back into your former situation. Famous quote: "If you keep doing the same things, your prone to get the same results." I agree with that statement WHOLE HEARTEDLY, as I'm as guilty as they come, falling back into the hell hole in which I've attempted to crawl out of over and over. That rock that I place my foot on, the slick one, that I know is slick, yet keep trying to use as my exit, finally it has hit me that I just cant make my way out by that means.

So why am I going to do, to better myself, become a better ME, the best me I can be (Damn sounds like I'm promoting for the Army) I digress. How do I move forward in becoming new and improved. Well its so easy, yet so misunderstood, maybe I can help.

See we all want nice things, we all envision ourselves in the life of material things. But what happens when we don't have it. Take a house for example. You decide to purchase a home, it's not the IDEAL home, but we know the phase, "HOME IS WHERE YOU MAKE IT". Now, your home is fairly old, and dated, and needs work to becoming a better home. So you decide to fix it up, and how do you do that? You search the house for all the "problems" and decide if its salvagable or does it need to be redone, right? So I'm referring to the floors, the roof, the tile, the plumbing etc, etc. These are the things that need to be fixed in order for your house to become better. Now, it's not easy, and you cant always do it yourself, but you tend to get it done right?

Well becoming a better you uses the same concept. Finding out, what's wrong with you, evaluating what is manageable and what you are going to need to fix or replace, and putting out the time, effort, and acquiring the right people to help you fix yourself. See, where we fall is that we say that we want to become better people, but our foundations, our core problems are never addressed. So you start building on top of faulty, rotted, rusted, foundations its only a matter of time before all you worked on begins to breakdown, the "problem" spreads like a virus, like mold, like cancer, virtually killing all the work you've done on top. And for what, because you didn't do it right the first time. Well, I haven't, I didn't do it right the first, nor second, nor third, but nows my time. Nows my time to build the house from the ground up, the house that people love and enjoy and want to be apart of, the house that doesn't shut down every year for reconstruction. They say a happy home, is a healthy home, well I say being happy with your personal home (yourself) is where we all want to be, we just need the tools to get it done, and the want to begin our home improvement. So if you know that you have been just covering up your problems, I hope this has enlightened you to gut yourself and fix your roots. This will help you become a better you, and thats what we all want to be.

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Race of the Cure

Howdy Partners,

Its been an interesting week for me, but that's another topic. I lost my phone, rather broke it, and upon getting it back and reconfiguring it, i stumbled on a little memo I wrote. Just another creation I had from before, but was so fitting to the way the week has already progressed. So enjoy.

Following your dreams takes you all across the world, doing the unthinkable, proving others wrong, but most importantly, proving to yourself that you can. Time and time again we are so doubtful of ourselves that people begin to have doubt within you as well. Its a level of comfort that has crippled the human nature just as a deadly virus. We all tend to give up, because someone, somewhere has given up on our potential. Most of us in the real world don't get hired off of potential talent, you either have it or hit the road.
When a person is given talent, or is talented, they tend to take it for granted, not realizing how much that initial talent will open doors, but only going to the extent in which that attribute will take them, in turn settling. This is a virus of satisfactory that I spoke of, a disease that spreads so vastly that everyone catches on and feeds into it. But alas, there is a remedy for this deteriorating disease, its only cure, self-confidence. Find confidence within yourself and go shock the world, I know I plan to, by becoming a better me than I was yesterday, beginning with believing in myself today....

Monday, February 1, 2010

When & Where the World Turns To

Salute, Hello's & Greetings,

I start my thought today with history of communication in my lifespan, and boy do I tell you its been AMAZING. I remember NOT having a phone, rather just going to your friends house, by foot (WHAT YOU USED TO WALK??) or bike. We will call that age, the Manual Communication Era. During the Manual Communication Era I used to have to (Lord Permit) walk across the street to go see what B.Will was doing. But the Manual Comm. Era was fast, swift-like and gone moving us to the era of the House Phone. The House Phone changed the world for us kids, oh, and if you had your own phone line.... You was so red carpet status.

My sister, Renee, had her own phone a few times (i say a few because she lost it so many times just the same) but I couldn't give my people that number, now isn't that some crazy shit. We lived five feet from each other with the damn phone in the middle of the hallway, but it was HER phone.

So this is when my game changed, without the House Phone Phoenominia, I stayed on my Manual Comm. Only I would just wonder off into the world of Sterling Green playing. Mommy would get PISSED because she couldn't find me. So with intervention, I skipped the House Phone and went to the Beeper at age 11 LOL.

Now needless to say, alot of the parents were baffled, "why does this 11 year old boy have a pager?" Some thought I sold drugs, others thought I was in a gang, but it was simply my mamas leash. If she beeped, it meant, BRING YO ASS HOME lol.

So fast forward to now, I'm sitting and blogging bout my communication history. We are so connected, from Yahoo ChatRoom, to AOL (You Got Mail) to Facebook, Myspace, Gtalk, Ichat, texting, we got so much shit I really don't even know which realm I need to contact you to tell you to read this, HELL or to just say Hi even. Do you have a friend that you call, no answer, you text, no answer, you tweet, no answer, BUT if you post on their Facebook wall, they sure hit you back and QUICK? Whats wrong with that picture, hell I just heard a co-worker tell me she texted her son to tell him dinner was ready.

As the world turns, the technology gets greater and greater, but this week, lets bring back that Manual Communication, whether its far or not, your friends, family, and loved ones are worth more then an email(a FWD: one at that) or a text message. Im guilty of that,yes I do it too, I do it too.... Lets bring it back!! Ready??

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Warnings In the Air!!!

Yo Ho Ho and a Bottle of Rum People,

So I wanted to talk to you bout something we all can relate to, yet we don't know when to pay attention to it. Today's blog is about your warning sign. Your warning sign is that feeling you get when you know, "OH SHIT, SOMETHING AINT RIGHT." Many of us negate this feeling for whatever reason, but we shouldn't. Others are really networked with this sign, giving it an identity, which can be very funny once you see it in action. Some have many warning signs, you know, like the angel vs the devil. But we all need to become more in touch with our feelings, and understanding your warning sign is key to succeeding in this manner.

Picture this, my boy, S.DOT, has this character that pops up in his think bubble in astute rage yelling "GAWWWWWDDDD DAMN!!! Thats some Bullshit!!" muscles flexing veins popping out, very over dramatic if you ask me. I'd like to say this is daily process as he is a very organized person, but the chaotic structure of his complex, over tasked work gets the better of him. Releasing his frustrations, sometimes aloud, sometimes to himself in this manner is a accurate warning sign of the downward spiral into "FUCKITVILLE." His warning sign allows him to refocus, before buildings get blown up.

Another example is $. Yes that is $. $ comes accompanied with his very own "Red Flag Man". You know, like on the race track, frantically waving his flag when there in danger ahead. Now, $ is in very good connection with his flag man, (long pause) SOBER! The problem is that the red flag gets waved more and more when he is intoxicated, AND even worse him and his red flag man sometimes yak together, meaning he REALLY doesnt pay attention to it. None the less, its funny to watch the battle unfold before your eyes. Quite humorous.

My final example is A! And boy I got to tell you the best one of them all, see, for the previous examples, these guys warning signs developed in their think bubble. For A! its a whole new story, hers is located in her gut, AND LET ME TELL YOU, THAT THING IS ON POINT. Her warning signs are tailored to more friendship, people, relationship oriented ideas, but you cant deny its accuracy. A simple text message is sent belly up, (BLING) New Message: ALERT! Umm, something aint right. Damn body technology, I digress.

So, whats my warning sign? Your probably thinking something just OFF THE WALL if you know me. But I really haven't defined mine as of yet. Picture in my think bubble (although I wish he would relocate down to my gut) I digress, picture in my think bubble an unconvincing old ass man, rubbing his chin, with his eyebrow raised. Each and every idea, situation, or event is questioned, and 75% of the time, he's contradicting the results vs what that person thinks is gonna happen. The old man warns you of the lack of success, but allows you to live you life, and gives great pleasure in the second meeting, where he gets to say, "I TOLD YOU SO" LOL. I love that old as man for being on point with his warning skills.

We all have this ability, and I'm sure most of you you have a character to help you out and I encourage you to should use it, it will help us take control of our lives, knowing that warnings in the air!!! Whats your warning sign?

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Intro Blog Reload!

Greetings Hello's & all that jazz,

So I just decided to re-post my intro blog to give an idea of what was to come.

I'm Richard S. Allen II and this is my blog. This blog is going to serve the purpose of allowing me to collectively share a form of creativity that can only be displayed from the experiences I have with the world in which im engulfed in. Ive been told MANY times that my perceptive is what one may call unique, and that i have a great way of sharing my encounters to show what i experienced, but as well as i can inject surrounding people with the unbiased way of "seeing from the other side" Its a gift, lol. Yet its gives me hell sometimes, its a curse.

So i invite you to follow my blog, my life, my experiences and relate them to your everyday life. Everyone is given this gift that we call life, some of you realize it and hold on to it, but others curse it and rather leave this "damned" place. LOL its your decision. And thats the best part of this gift, we decide the ending.

Ill start off with many of the short comings I've written thus far in life, so with that I leave my foundation of this blog.


Looking ahead in life one must know there are two sides of every story, this is mine. Enjoy

Just For You Mom

Hello Hi Whats Up & All that,

Today I decided to share another poem with you, this one is for my beloved mom, Mommy to me, but Mama Allen to you who you probably know by now. She is an extraordinary woman and a model of strength, wisdom, will, and love. She is the bond that keeps the Allen family together and without her, I wouldn't be who I am today. Don't be too harsh on me, please people, I never said I was a poet. And now: Celebrating You

Celebrating You

Today is the day I take time to celebrate you
Who from day one loved me so much and continued on day two
I was put on this earth by the woman I love
You’re my beating heart, there’s no one above

Teaching right from wrong and what was allowed
Everyday I made sure the decision I made would make you proud
I speak so highly of you to everyone I know
Who’d ever thought a love so strong could continue to grow
Truth be told I could have no other
If there is one thing I’m certain of its that I love my Mother

Everyday you wake you should be proud
That you are a great mother when it comes to raising your child
Through hardship and hard times you’ve put me first
Never afraid to open your purse
All I have become I owe all to you
Without you in my life, I would never have the slightest clue

So today is the day I celebrate you
For all that you are and all that you do
You were put on this earth to be a Mother for all
God has given you a job and you have answered your call

I love you mommy until my dying day
But first I must tell you HAPPY MOTHERS DAY.


You’re Ever Loving Son,

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

In The Game of Life Whens Your Turn??

So I've been wondering why the world is the way it is? For the average guy, the world can be a harsh place you know. Just think you do all the right things, make all the right "personal" moves: go to school, work hard, make good grades, go to college, graduate college, not on drugs, no kids, got a job, got a car, etc, etc the list can go on and on for all the things you do in your life thats "positive" for you. Yet you are soo far behind in society among your peers because now, you owe money, got debt, got bills, make "so-so" money, etc, etc you just find yourself at a dead end resulting you in actually contradicting yourself and the decisions you've made to come this far.

You take a look around you and everyone is doing well, yet you have the credentials that are supposed to surpass them. Can someone explain that? How are you to catch up from so far behind in the race, wheres the express lane, wheres the cheat code, what corner do you have to cut? Because you look at those ahead in this race and you see a lot of them are born into their success or sell their soul to become this term that we call "successful." That's what we want to be right? Successful, in school, in our jobs, in our marriages, in our homes. Successful.

So you ask, what is success? Ah yes, and here is the beauty in the term we call success, it's a wonderful thing because we get to create our very own definitions. But, and there is always that big fat voluptuous round end waving right in front of your face, yes, that BUT! We all, you, me, mom, Granny, Me-ma, and AYO's (All you others) decide that you need to educate people on what success is. Who in the fuck are you to tell ME, the creator of my OWN PERSONAL definition of success is, what success is and have to audacity to tell me that I'm not successful. And why not you ask, why are I deemed UNSUCCESSFUL? Because I'm not you? Because I'm not rich or famous? Because I cant get a Coach purse or drive a BMW? Is that why I'm not successful?

One of my good friends, Lyfe, tells me to "fake it till you make it," and I say why? Why not continue your path, be it slow and steady, carving and defining your work of art. Why not tune out all the outside input and focus on the stability of clarifying your definition. Once we realize that it really not a game, that it's not a race, we will begin to see. Because years upon years you'll be able to look back and appreciate the time you spent on becoming, what you know and lot yourself to be known, as successful, and that what we all just want to be. (Que Drake) LOL!

Monday, January 18, 2010

Don't Hate... Appeciate

Hello Howdy & Greetings,

Once again I'm back on my blog this time to share some of my poetry that I've created. I've been in this "dance with devil" for many years now, and its been one of the best things that has come of my life thus far. She has loved me, hated me, adored me, and scorned me, but throughout it all, has been there for me. I decided to write this for after a little quarrel when i realized I was only telling her the things that I hated, or the things that she didn't do. We as a society focus so much on the negative aspects of life, that we miss the positive. So I entitled my poem: A Lil Appreciation

A Little Appreciation

I took the time out to say thank you
To tell you I appreciate all that you do
From the biggest of things, to the things so small
I want to say than you and I appreciate all
From the gifts I get and the things you buy
Instead of saying thanks love, I ruin it by asking why
I appreciate it
From the things you’re doing for us for our future
To the things you’ve run across on my computer
I appreciate it
From the money you gave when I got a ticket
To the times I'm lazy, bring you a comb, and ask you to pick it
I appreciate it
From the dishes you wash, clothes you clean
To the hugs you’ve given even when I'm being mean
I appreciate it
For time after time standing strong by my side
To my times when I travel and you let me borrow your ride
I appreciate it
For the lessons taught about things I didn’t see
To not thinking about yourself, but thinking bout we
I appreciate it
From the tears and the pain that you’ve endured
To the changes you made based of things that have occurred
I appreciate it
For making my laugh and being my friend
For opening my eyes to show, in true love, there is no end
I appreciate it
For being a true challenge for me, never giving in
For being the bigger person and the first to listen
I appreciate it
For being loving, independent, smart and a beautiful girl
For walking in my door, and changing my world
I appreciate it
I just wanted to take time to get this off my chest
To let you know I really appreciate you and that you are the best
I wanted to say thank you for coming into my life
Knowing that this is only the beginning, and ill appreciate you more when you are my wife

I, with all my heart, Love You Julie K. Leeper
(NO HOMO)

Hope you enjoyed and hope that was a reminder to appreciate the ones you care about most. Take time out today to show someone a lil appreciation today for whatever or whoever they are in your life to and for you.

Friday, January 15, 2010

The Battle Among Us

Hello, Greeting, & All that junk.

This morning I bring you another archived thought just to share. This is about the art of war. Im referring to the chess match that is "love." At this point of my life I was discovering what love really was, and what was needed to hold on to it. Enjoy.

Love is a silly game we play filled with ups and downs, in and outs. Its about the uplifting gains, and the crumbling setbacks. Its about the have, and the have nots. Those that want it fight so hard to get it, but it turns so wrong when you fail to receive it, with all the pain, emotion, and energy spent. Others are so scared to give it, for fear it will make them weak and vulnerable. We all see the battle begin to unfold in front of us now right? As the stalemate dawns upon us, the weak ones give up the fight. But us strong ones, fighting and battling, day by day, year by year, later than sooner do reach that other side of the board. There is not plan, no script, no time frame, just will and courage to battle within the lines and outside of them.

I'll let you in on a secret though, trust and communication are the keys to love. Once those elements vanish, the darkness of insecurity causes change within your world, changes that can be considered as defeat and push for the decision to raise the white flag. But i assure you, with your shield of trust and your sword of communication, the battlefield is yours for the taking. So choose, stand up and begin your fight, arm yourself and put your heart on the line, but if you do choose this game of love, bring your "A" game, because I promise it will be an all out war......

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Its a Celebration, Or is it??

Greetings, Hello's, & All That Jazz

As mentioned behind i was going to mingle in some of my old writing along with my new that i never posted. Understand my thoughts and idea were raw, so I will edit some but not enough to take away the originality. This thought is dated February 25th, 2006, as i was supposed to be celebrating my birthday, instead, my mind was here.

Have you ever asked yourselves, what is celebration? I sit and observe the thumping of the beat, swinging of hair, all the smiles and frowns and laughing fills the atmosphere, but yet what do we celebrate? Is it love, friendship, success, or good ole drunkenness? I observe the different mindsets as I wonder on my own. Why do we celebrate, is it for the weekend, missed relationships?

Across the world at this very moment people are drinking their lives away
CELEBRATING.
Its different for all of us, though we cannot explain and none will probably be the same. We all have a purpose, find yours and do that shit. Celebrate something, if it is even the fact of being alive, because life is indeed a gift. Ive learned life is as short as we make it, filled with ups and downs, and the crazy thing is that we celebrate both, our ups and downs, when you get that new job, or when you lose that same one you "hated".

So tonight call the ones you love and celebrate for we never know if tomorrow will show, Never. Except for me... ill observe you... I'm done celebrating, the beat of the drum only intrigues me so much. I'd rather be celebrating things that are necessary, my family, lovers... fuck individual days.i.e. Valentines, Mothers Fathers, Birthday, no no i digress, rather fuck the commercialization the world has put on these days, let people know you love them everyday. That way.. when tomorrow comes, or if it doesn't, they all know. Now dance to that shit...

Monday, January 11, 2010

Hidden Little Gem Called The Positive

So today i was greeted with, "Hey have you ever heard of the book, The Secret" (i think this is where i need to google for you) Ok here we go; The Secret is a book that presents what is claimed to be a centuries-old idea, the pseudo-scientific Law of Attraction, which in essence is the power of an individual's positive thinking to change and influence outcomes in their lives.

So greeted with that I was thanked for giving the advice to Miss LLN directing her to live a lil in her attempt to wade back in to the crazy world of relationships and dating. She proclaimed that she was shy and that she believed that its (how many times do you hear this) "its a mans job to approach the woman" BULL CRAP!!

With the negative way of thinking, filling your mind with rejection and shyness your setting yourself up to fail, be coming a whiner, coming up with excuse after excuse of why not, which can make you miserable and alone. All this effect ultimately results in you FAILING MISERABLY, you end up alone drinking wine due to whining. Lets call this chain of results "FATAL MISERABLE WINALITY" (Dr.Allen just got my psychology on)And no one wants that.

So negative thinking leads to "fatal-miserable-winality" and instead of doing that, Miss LLN took the the lead and through out the bait, and PRESTO!! The little risk she took not only worked but also has giving her a new way of wanting to live life. Being aggressive and being positive does soo much for the mental well-being of our daily lives.

So in closing, I want to thank Miss LLN for instilling my little hidden gem for the day, knowing that she considered me to be a positive person was the pick me up i needed. Go find your gem, its worth it.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Intro Blog

Greetings Hello's & all that jazz,

Im Richard S. Allen II and this is my blog. This blog is going to serve the purpose of allowing me to collectively share a form of creativity that can only be displayed from the experiences I have with the world in which im engulfed in. Ive been told MANY times that my perception is what one may call unique, and that i have a great way of sharing my encounters to show what i experienced, but as well as i can inject surrounding people with the unbias way of "seeing from the other side" Its a gift, lol. Yet its gives me hell sometimes, its a curse.

So i invite you to follow my blog, my life, my experiences and relate them to your everyday life. Everyone is given this gift that we call life, some of you realize it and hold on to it, but others curse it and rather leave this "damned" place. LOL its your decision. And thats the best part of this gift, we decide the ending.

Ill start off with many of the short comings I've written thus far in life, so with that I leave my foundation of this blog.


Looking ahead in life one must know there are two sides of every story, this is mine. Enjoy